Feeling a bit low this evening. I've been reading some old email coraspondence between my and my wife (now ex). It was from over 6 years ago. We were seperated but not divorced yet. I'd probably be better off if I didn't read this stuff, but sometimes I'm just compelled.
When I read the words I wrote, I can't even believe it was me who wrote them. I was such an a$$. The only, and I truly mean only, thing she ever asked of me, was for me to quit smoking pot. That's it. I just wouldn't do it. WTF!!! I threw away a 15 year relationship so I could keep smoking pot. Why! Why! Why! I know....because I'm an addict. That's just not good enough. When I finally walked away, it wasn't that hard, certainly not hard enough to give up what I gave up. I just don't understand. Sigh....