Thanks to everyone
For sharing your experience, strength, and hope.
Things are quite a bit better for me now, although I'm still single, the promises are happening in my life, and things feel so much better.
More specifically to Carol, (and everyone that suggested community service/public transit) helping others has helped me, and I do find that taking a sincere interest in someone else usually pulls me out of the committee in my head.
As for the Public Transit, there really isn't much of that around me, but I've been getting to meetings with a little help from my friends, getting to work, other than that it's still a work in progress, but I'm sure if I'm meant to be someplace, I will be there.
Thanks again,
Robobrain