Originally Posted by
MAB 
Yes, the plan is NOT to drink. It's obviously not working out very well for me.
I can relate to this very well. I planned not to drink all the time. My plans always failed. I had to do some research and decide if according to the experts I was an alcoholic or not. I was. A couple of years down the road and its clear to me that it was total insanity to try and stop drinking on my own. I had to link up with people who had beat this alcoholism thing. It was in AA I learned that I'm not broken, just sick. And we get better. I needed to change my thinking and eventually explore spiritual matters.
Today the obsession to drink alcohol is lifted. I have problems in my life, but alcohol is not one of them.
I wish you the best..