Hey
I did the same kind of thing as you although I did have some thoughts that I could be alcoholic.
I did about 20 tests online to "make sure" what i was reading was true - and then denial crept in.
Try not to overload your mind with things, take it easy and each day as it comes - the rest falls into place.
But as others have mentioned, detoxing is something the professionals can help with.
If you think you might like to talk face to face with others, AA is a good place to start.
Keep posting and reading - I have learnt alot from here and got amazing support!
LH