Reggie, I'm so glad you found SR. I got sober after finding this place. All the encouragement & love that was shared with me helped me quit after 25 yrs. I knew in my 20's I had a problem, but kept going - always thinking I would control it - that it was just a willpower issue. Once the first drink hits us, all bets are off. There is no control & no telling where we'll be led.
I found I was no longer alone after I came here. The same things I'd been through, everyone else had too. No one in my world had my problem, & I had begun to think it was just a character flaw. I had never been a bitter, angry person - yet drinking was turning me into one. The very thing I thought was making my life happier and carefree. It was so hard to admit I was slowly killing my spirit & destroying my health. Giving up the idea that I could ever have "a few" was hard for me, but the only way.
Congratulations on your decision to change and have a new life. You can do this!