Hi Reggie and welcome.
For me admitting I was an alcoholic was the first step. Until then I couldn't imagine I could ever be one because alcohol created an illusion that I was so very, very different to "alcoholics".
But knowledge of that problem was not enough for me to recover. I recovered using the 12 Step program of Alcoholics Anonymous.
Why not try going to some meetings? Meeting other alcoholics face to face who know exactly how you feel is invaluable. They also can show you a solution to your problem.
Keep sharing here. This is a great support site.