HonestlyNony

Hi again, lol... I'm a real chatterbox tonight I guess (expecting it to be a long night..)

My dad was a heavy drinker and got mean about it every time. I always thought he just had an icky personality and never realized til I took my turn on the booze-go-round that it was alcohol related...

But the part that really touched me about what you said is the looking up to mommy part. That played a major role in my stopping. I was going to set a date, like in two weeks, but then I thought with two preschoolers and two teenagers as a single mom, what if I'm already too late??

I really really hope I can one day hear those words from one of my kids. Just Monday of this week I was drunk, unemployed, single, inattentive, sloppy and largely absent. Not much there to emulate. Today I'm still unemployed and single, but I hope to cultivate some redeeming qualities to counteract the damage I've done.

Thanks for being here and giving me hope.