I'm sorry you are feeling a little ruff today, but in early recovery it is just like getting on a Roller Coaster Ride.
You've decided that drinking isn't good, so you bought yourself a ticket to the Roller Coaster Of Recovery. You've paid for your ticket, that clerk took it, he made sure that you are buckled in good for the ride, so you don't all out. He pulls the switch, and off we go. We have no control as to what turns, twist, curves, or bends we go through, we can't stop the ride, we are not in control. So today, just make sure that you make sure you seat belt is tightened down really good today!
Wonderful on your 12 days!