Hi and Welcome!
I'm glad you recognize that you have a problem and are seeking support.
I stayed away from people who were drinking for a long time. I couldn't handle the stress of being around alcohol for a long time when I stopped drinking. Now, we never keep alcohol in the house and it's great.
My life sober is a million times better than when I was drinking. When I was drinking I became focused on drinking and let everything else slip away.
You will find lots of support here!