A few things;
1. It is easy to quit drinking but it is extremely hard to stay sober.
2. It is easy to admit that we are alcoholics but it is extrmely hard to accept it.
3. It is easy to want to change but it is extremely hard to actually change.
I could go on and on, but without AA I would still be out there stopping for 3 weeks at a time and starting again. Admitting I was a drunk but somehow drinking again because I had no tools to help me to stay sober. Why do this alone when there is a better way. I suggest you go to AA and don't think too much about anything other than not taking the first drink and listening to people with the exact same stories as yours. I was blown away to find that these people could relate to my problems. I also thought I was different and alone in the world, but that was not the case. Do yourself a huge favor and give it a try and tell the group about your reservations about AA. They will not be offended because probably 75% of them had the same issues coming in.
Best of luck and keep posting!