OMG i forgot about the drives!!!! Yeah i used to do that on the nights i didn't drink (a few years ago now admittedly), i would get in the car and drive about 50-75 miles, i think it was because it was something to do that would kind of relieve the constant 'thinking' in my head, also have the music blaring...maybe trying to get away from me, dunno?!
I remember in Spain when i was mid twenties they even used to poke fun at it, where's cliff is he not coming out tonight...hes gone on one of his drives...wow i seriously forgot! And always the fantasising of better days, just anything not to be living in that moment...thanks Midwest!