MSR - try not to be discouraged - every day you'll feel a little better, I promise. (I was a daily drinker for almost 25 yrs. & now sober over 2 yrs. after finding SR.) You aren't alone anymore, you have us to vent to & we don't mind a bit. It's all part of the process. You'll go through many phases, & one day you'll wake up with peace of mind and hope in your heart once again. All those things you mentioned will come to pass.
Your desire to feel better NOW should be very encouraging, even if it's frustrating for you at the moment. You'll be more likely to stick it out, rather than go back to square one. Wanting and needing change is what keeps us moving forward to a new day, so it's a healthy thing. You can do this.
Kerbcrawler, congratulations on your 8 days. That's wonderful. Glad you are here with us.