Originally Posted by
Toronto68 
Redwine, I see your point about looking up to the person who has more weeks; I do that when it's someone with more time behind them (more months, years). At the same time though, I have also found things worth taking in from people who have fewer weeks of sobriety than I do. There are lots of insights to draw from. Out of the ugliness of addiction, one beautiful thing for me is being able to draw insights from many different types of people. Even if someone relapses, there is something to be learned from them (they aren't the only ones with something to constantly learn). That's one of the meanings of the phrase "alcohol, the great equalizer" for me. But you don't have to throw away the desire to "reach what someone else has got"; that is most likely a good tool to stay on track.
Keep going, by the way!
I hear what you are saying. Thanks for that.
I'm learning a lot of difficult things about myself so when I see people with successes, I tend to go, "wtf? they have done well!"
I've basically come to a few difficult truths and am grappling with them. I have to say that reading posts on SR has been extremely informative and helpful. If I can keep my "cop on" on, I should be ok. Today I posted some "hey, well done" posts. Maybe that was not appropriate -- I dunno.
Anyway, I'm not going anywhere. I'm going to read and learn. I lurked a while before posting, and I know this for sure: there was a huge change between lurking and posting. I only started learning when I posted and stated my situation.
It's very very early days for me and I know damn all, really.