Redwine, I see your point about looking up to the person who has more weeks; I do that when it's someone with more time behind them (more months, years). At the same time though, I have also found things worth taking in from people who have fewer weeks of sobriety than I do. There are lots of insights to draw from. Out of the ugliness of addiction, one beautiful thing for me is being able to draw insights from many different types of people. Even if someone relapses, there is something to be learned from them (they aren't the only ones with something to constantly learn). That's one of the meanings of the phrase "alcohol, the great equalizer" for me. But you don't have to throw away the desire to "reach what someone else has got"; that is most likely a good tool to stay on track.
Keep going, by the way!