Long, though I relate to where you are coming from, maybe read back on your posts today. I would say most everyone here is happy and having fun. We are not a glum lot! Your posts have indicated to me that you hate 99% of all people. We're here to help you if you want help. Being so resentful and full of fear sounds more like 'depressed are us', than sitting in a church and enjoying yourself on a Friday night in my opinion.