melodiez, You're in the right place! welcome, you know something that was pointed out to me in early recovery, when I felt I "didn't have time for meetings"? I had all the time in the world to go buy booze, drink it, go to parties, drink more, go home, drink more, get very little done on my house because well, I was drinking, drink more, recover from drinking and repeat all over again, Oh yeah! I had plenty of time and motivation when it came to drinking, if you can channel only part of that into getting to some meetings your life will improve, that's the next step IMHO
'peace, K