I'm there with Hevyn. The positive aspect of drinking left my life long, long before I was actually able to say goodbye to it. It almost took my son and husband away. I was an inch away from losing the 2 most important people in my life. To me that made alcohol enemy #1.
Good luck and you most certainly can give it up HC! I remember you here from before. Turn to SR when the feeling strikes and if SR isn't enough and its too easy to turn off the computer and pour the drink then I would look into finding something face to face. Maybe you need real live voices to help you stay accountable. Just a thought. Whatever you decide you are in my prayers. xxx