Hi Fenway
Welcome back - you've have some great advice here - I really can't do anything but reiterate - be honest with your doctor.
I spent years basically lying to my Dr - it did me no good whatsoever - doctors and therapists cannot help you if they only know half the story.
It's in
your best interests to be honest and open, Fenway.
Don't let fear and your imagination stop you - all thats going to happen if you come clean is you'll get the right help for your problems
Reaching out and being honest is the only way you're going to find better and less harmful ways to cope with stuff than alcohol, Fenway.
Think about it
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