Just gotta stick with it angharad. keeping sober is also about 'accepting' that it sure ain't gonna be easy! Accept that anything in life thats good has to be worked for. At times you will feel just totally p*ssed-off and bored about things but just stick it out one day at a time and you will not regret it.
Being an active alcoholic is the easy way out. Put the work in and make that commitment each day not to pick up that first drink and your life will reap the rewards in time.
peace