Thank you so much for continuing to respond. I made it through day 5. It has been a difficult weekend though as my husband and I had a huge blowup argument and he blurted/yelled at me to "Why don't you just go have another drink!" rather than argue with me about the issue. I HADN'T EVEN BEEN DRINKING!!! Idiot. I sure WANTED to after THAT though! However, I took many deep breaths and I made it through. We are now hardly talking. We can't talk about issues we have and it's killing me inside. Outside, I am continuing not to feel, even though I am not drinking. Is that good or bad? I don't know. Maybe I have been over this marriage a long time ago.
If I call AA, won't people from my town/city be there? I really don't want to have others in my community know I am dealing with this. How do I go about going through the steps anonomously?
Fakesmiles :-)