Consider this, Smashing: Non-Alcoholics seldom worry about their drinking. The Big Book talks about certain types who aren't alcoholic (pg 20-21). I suggest you get the book, Alcoholics Anonymous, and read the first 164 pages. See if you find yourself in there. You can get it at most any AA meeting, bookstore or library. Checking out this work won't hurt you a bit and could save your arse.