Hope you're doing ok hun. If I was being the least bit preachy then i apologise for that. I have had a lot of support from this forum over my now 9 days sober, and like yourself, i haven't been drinking everyday for 20+ years, im only 29. Personally I haven't experienced preachyness only people who care, who have been through the worst and are offering experienced help. Wishing you all the best.