Welcome to SR Ella.
I like that term drunkaholic by the way. I think that it applies to me too.
I quit drinking on an ultimatum from my wife and to be honest at first I missed the action of a good party or night at the bar.
After a few months though, while going to the bar or a party sober I found that I didn't want to be like the people that are totally smashed and found they were not interesting at all so it is something that I no longer miss.
Give being sober a few months and see if you don't feel the same way.
Good luck and keep us posted.