"Being drunk always outweighs my desire to be sober, always."
Fascination, I understand, I used alcohol to create a feeling of happiness. You asked how many times you will hold a debate with yourself ("no more"). My answer to that is however many times I did it between the age of 20 and 41. Other people will tell you much longer spans of time, still others way less time. I share similarities to that range of people.
Congratulate yourself on the steps you take and keep an open mind. Check what people here say. When you stop (now or if you stop again the future), give yourself enough time off the drinking to compare how you feel between sober periods and drinking ones and take inventory of what is going on in your life. Just a suggestion from me.