Let's cool it with the troll talk, guys. Let's keep things supportive or I'll have to shut things down.
El C you've had a lot of good advice here - mostly offered in a spirit of concern...occasionally perhaps things have tipped over into frustration for some... but simply put, noone would post to you if they didn't care.
I wish you well, and I hope you decide to go on from here and move into recovery...
but if I understand anything from almost 3 years here, it's that that decision - like your detox one - must be yours to make.
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