"You know, a lot of people here are very preachy. It's almost as if people want me to hit their type of rock bottom, say a bottle and half of vodka every day for 20 years, in order to truly be serious about knocking the drinking on the head. "
Actually, El C, it's more like a lot of people are cognizant of their very real feelings about suffering from an addiction and recovering from it, and you don't understand anything but your detox agenda that you are journalling here.
I can't force you to appreciate the sensible voices of experience here anymore than I can force you to change the non-Mr-Spock style of thinking you possess, which believes repeated self-administered detox is the way to go. Like alcoholism is an ON/OFF switch, only a little gas to go with it
I actually don't now whether you are suffering from alcohol or are an internet troll.