Welcome to SR!
What makes you think you're going to start drinking again? Areyou going thru some sort of crisis? Whatever it is, it can be gotten thru sober. And remember this, there is nothing so bad that alcohol can't make it worse. So true. I've never woken up in the morning wishing I had drank the night before.
Stay strong and sober one day at a time. You WILL get thru this and be stronger for it. (((hugs)))