Thanks you all...I am planning on going to a Monday night meeting (a Woman's group)..I am having issues with childcare. I have Mother's day out Tues and Thurs..My husband works in the oil field and is leaving Monday for his month away..We asked his family to watch little man for Monday night. I need more meetings but I don't know how to do it..I only really know my inlaws and I really don't want them knowing about my AA because we already have a bumpy relationship. I'm very concerned about my health and my quality of life. I used to enjoy the small things and I'm always in a fog..I don't want to live this way any longer! We have insurance so I'm thinking about maybe even doing a thirty day rehab but I bet that cost $$$~(I could go during my husbands month home?) anyway I'm figuring it out!