Well thank you for being people who care without being judgmental. I never do well with "tough love" anyways, it doesn't get through to me. Whenever I get tough love, I have to wonder if that ever worked for anyone else. A lot of what everyone here has to say is right though. I do try to find things to be grateful for, like the fact that I have a teddy bear to sleep with or the fact that my roommate and I get along. I'm grateful for the fact that my dad is back on his medicine and apologized for everything. I just get down when I realize that the amount of human interaction I have has boiled down to around 0.