Originally Posted by
SunshineState 
Also, what this represents to me is the decision to make a change. It's so easy to try to quit drinking and fail repeatedly, to feel sorry for myself, and feel guilt and humiliation. It's so much harder to actually do something.
This is very true. One thing I know for sure is that it is not going to get worse for you when you go to AA. When I am at meetings, time and time again do I hear people sharing how wonderful the fellowship is and the people in it. There's a feeling of common unity in a shared problem which is very comforting.
Many, many people go are very isolated. This is common with alcoholics.
Welcome to SR and your decision to make a change.