Going to my very first AA meeting
So today I've decided to go for the first time, and I have to admit I am scared.
I think partially it's because I have so completely isolated myself from everyone that putting myself out there is going against all that I have become. Also, what this represents to me is the decision to make a change. It's so easy to try to quit drinking and fail repeatedly, to feel sorry for myself, and feel guilt and humiliation. It's so much harder to actually do something.
I've managed to get out of an abusive, alcohol-fueled relationship recently. I have dramatically reduced my drinking since then, but I haven't been able to quit. It's so hard. I would greatly appreciate any support or sharing of stories.