El C, I'm honest when I say it is kind of sandpapery to read that. I have come to believe in admitting complete powerlessness as the way to go and then "Monday" is bright as can be with the hope in store. I guess throwing dynamite into some fires works to bring them down, but I didn't know this is the way to go when one is saying goodbye to drinking alcohol - and with ones BODY. Are you a lawyer or your own personal physician? Is there no way of getting medical help?
Sorry (to you and whoever is reading), I don't think I am being very supportive right now. I feel frustrated.