Old 02-19-2010, 05:46 PM
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lostmyway
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Join Date: Dec 2009
Location: Somewhere along the Delaware River, Pennsylvania
Posts: 137
Something about early sobriety I am just not getting...

I'm still kicking myself for going back to drinking after 48 days of sobriety, of course. But I'm back on the wagon for four days now. It's Friday night and I am having cravings. I want a drink. I don't want to hit another rock bottom, which will eventually happen; I don't want my friend of 10 years who is also in recovery having to drive to my house at 2 a.m. to dump my bottle of Bacardi in the snow and put me to bed so I can spend the next two days feeling like crap. I just want the immediate gratification of a drink, and I don't want to think about the "...and then what?" part. Does any of this make any sense? Do the cravings ever go away? When do people in recovery start to become truly grateful? All I feel now is truly miserable.
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