....I have the true desire now. Enough is enough. I drank four bottles of wine yesterday to ward off withdrawals.
I've already started drinking today (its 11am here). I was off the booze several days this week, but I drank so much on Weds that I have been having super withdrawals since.
I am not able to work today as I need to drink half of what I drank yesterday and, god willing, go tomorrow without the sauce.
Three years ago when I got stuck on a bottle and a half of vodka a day all I wanted was to return to normality.
Well, life is different now, booze has still screwed me up still over the years, even though it was much reduced until now. With all the stress I have in my life at the moment I can feel myself going down the same road as three years ago, but not out of choice, rather because of the withdrawals.
This far. No further. Don't give a rat's arse if I never drink again once I get this godforsaken poison out of me. I've done too many withdrawals now. This has to be the last.
I want my life back.