Hi Jay,
Welcome!
It sounds like you've made some big changes in your life that will really help you with your sobriety.
And, you know in your heart that your drinking is problem. The addict voice is telling you that it's not so bad in order to keep you hooked. And, it's normal to be scared to face life sober. I was so scared I didn't know how I could through an evening without drinking, but you can get through this, and we are here to support you.