I struggled with the "never again's" too...they pass with time and at 60 something days, I can tell you that I now enjoy cooking without the drink and all the other doors that have opened have been worth it..
Hang in there .. it does get better!
OH and I got sober over Xmas and New years....you can do it! I had a blast on NYE, got myself busy, still danced like an idiot and managed conversations and REMEMBERED them all!