Well everyone I fell again, every time I go out of town on business I end up drinking. I guess because there is no accountability. I really screwed up this time, I didn't show for a meeting this morning because I was sick from being hung over. God I am so pathetic, I probably ruined my reputation. I am seriously thinking of calling the employee assistance counselors through my work and getting some help. I am a classic person who never thought that he was an alcoholic because I only go out once and awhile, but when I do, I get in trouble. call of work and all kinds of terrible stuff.
God forgive me for falling down again, please change me because I cannot change myself.
