Hey 308. First of all, you're here and you're among friends. I used to feel pretty worthless too. Every stinkin day was the same old insanity, which was good, because that was a reason to get obliterated. Every stinkin day. Today I don't have to do that. Today, I really like the person in the mirror instead of avoiding eye contact with her. There is hope. Personally, I found recovery in with a 12 step program and have had great success with, one day at a time. No matter what route you choose, remember this one thing....self pity and negative talk + $1.25 will get you coffee at a gas station...but that's about it. Please keep us updated on your progress. You can do this. You really can.
Best of luck.