I find myself getting anxious when I won't allow myself to have that second and third glass that I used to normally have.
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knowing that alcoholism is progressive and knowing that at some point id lost the power of choice with alcohol.............i guess at some early point i was at that stage you posted above....
if alcohol is a problem stop drinking it.
you will quickly find the measure of your possible problem.
It good and heathly to question and spot light your drinking and what happens when to use willpower not to drink...
i always use my wife as comparison for a normal temperant drinker.....
she drinks maybe a glass of wine........maybe everynight.........maybe not all month.......once she even got drunk...lol.........not a pretty sight.
the key feature with my wifes drinking is if she decides to lay off it for a month.......it happens............and its no big deal.
she mantains the power to choose when...where.......how much...
maybe worth reading the doctors opinion in the book alcoholics anonymous.
see what you think...........id be interested to hear.
good luck