Thank you to all of you who helped get me through those dark hours last night. I went to the doctor first thing this morning and told him my meds aren't working. I was told that my drinking is a symptom of a larger problem (that being my bipolar disorder) and I drink because it is the only thing that slows my racing mind during my manic episodes. I have new meds now and I am supposed to be going for shock therapy...sounds scary, but I am going along with it for now.
Also thanks to those of you who sent me messages...I'm sorry I haven't had a chance to resond yet; my time on the computer has to be cut short as of right now because I am about to go to an AA meeting.
Back to Day One of sobriety. God give me the strength to do this.