I'm new to this and don't know if this post will be helpful or harmful but I can totally relate. I'm a single mom and sometimes think I'm a better mom when I drink because I am calmer and am not being so nit picky about everything. My youngest son was not planned and ex husband and I were in a very bad place when I found out I was pregnant. He's 6 now and his smiles are one of the best things of my day.
I'm determined to get and stay sober because I don't want my kids to continue to grow with an alcoholic mom. I'm also scared to death about what I've done to my body so far and that I will die young and leave my kids without a mom and what that would do to my daughter and son.