Hi Karen,
If you want to stop drinking for good, you can do that. For me, I had to change everything in my life. I had to see myself for who I really was, and make peace with that. I had to accept that I wasn't the person I had pretended to be. The change has to come from the inside out, I believe.
My advice is to change your routines. Plan something for the weekends that will help to distract you from drinking. Try to begin to like and love yourself. I don't believe that we can continue to poison ourselves if we love ourselves. Know that you can do this!