Originally Posted by
ANGELINA243 
Staying clean/sober is definitely easier than getting clean/sober. Eventually you do get to the point where you don't struggle daily with thoughts of whether or not to use or drink. I am free from all that today. I am not merely existing anymore. I enjoy being clean today.
Yes Dave, I can say the same as Angelina, although it may not seem that way for you yet that staying clean becomes easier as you struggle through getting sober.
It does get much better.
Many of us required real changes in our daily lives -- our friends our jobs and even our relationships with families and loved ones required an honest evaluation as we came to grips with the surrendering of ourselves to the life of sobriety.
Just not "drinking" is
not enough to make the struggle easier. A changed life makes the struggle "easier". Keep on a path of recovery that works for you Dave, and you'll have the same freedoms and joys of sobriety that all sober alcoholics have and share together.
You can do it.