Hi LadyL. I agree with the others - if you bend the rules regarding your sober days, it won't have the same significance for you. Those milestones would lose their meaning, & since you say that's very important to you, I would start over. It won't take long to accumulate those days again!
Your post wasn't rambling at all - and doesn't it feel good to get all that out, sharing with people who truly understand and care? I have never felt alone since finding SR. I'm sorry for all you've been through with your father. I hope you'll get some help in dealing with that sad episode in your life so unresolved anger doesn't spill over into thiis new era you're about to create. You sound determined this time, & we know you can do this!