(((Teke))) - for me, this is normal. When they were still alive, we still had that hope - hope that they would eventually "get it together" and we could work things out. Now, that they're gone, it's so damned final. I kept telling myself that "we'll never be together again" but I think I secretly held out hope that somewhere down the road....maybe we could at least be friends? With you, you had so much more of a history...of course, you are going to miss him.
Be gentle with yourself and realize that the feelings are going to come and go. I don't think there are any wrong or right feelings....just feel them and walk through them...post here and know that we are here for you.
Love you!!
Hugs and prayers!
Amy