Congratulatiuons on your commitment. Here's some things I've heard from meetings that have humbled me enough to think twice about missing my usual 7+ meetings a week.
"I had no shame in letting them see me wobble, slobber, cuss, and puke all over the place. But I'll be damned if I'm going to take a chance on letting them see me trying to get sober and better myself."
"I had no problem bowing over the pot I pooped in every morning puking my guts out with my family watching. But I had a big problem with bowing my head asking for help amongst those just like me."
Been there done that.
Then came a time when I would know what REAL pain felt like.
As much as I credit the process in the book for my sobriety, I can tell you without a shadow of a doubt had it not been for the Fellowship of Alcoholics Anonymous I would NOT be sober today. The Fellowship helped me achieve a level of pain I could not have imagined going in, and willingness I had not yet even dreamed of coming out.
But you may be different. Good luck in your journey.