If you never drink again then you will never have to feel like this again. Simple eh?...
Untill time passes and things even themselves out again and you start to forget the pain you feel now and the 'high times' nostalgia start to flood back into your thoughts and you see all those happy smiley people at the bars with all their pals and their chicks and you think, "I want a piece of all that again, It can't have been that bad!". And then bam... waking from another blackout feeling like you do now but even more hopeless.
Of course this will never need happen if you acknowledge and accept that it's the booze that is the problem and that you're an alcoholic and cannot ever drink alcohol again...EVER. Period!! That is the score... sounds simple but obviously down the line without a recovery programme being worked then it's very unlikely that you will stay away from that first drink. For an alcoholic it's the first one thats the killer!
Excuses will be made as to why you deserve a drink and you will drink again. Happens all the time. An alcoholic that drinks is the norm... it's the alcoholics who are staying sober one day at a time who are the minority!
Just for today I will not drink...