hi LMW
We all fell over a time or two. Changing your life is a difficult thing to manage.
I think you're far better off to focus on the fact you made your personal best - 48 days.
It shows to me, you *can* do this sobriety thing, even in the face of all the other stuff you have going on
I agree with humblebee tho - look at why you drank - try to work out how you could have handled last night better - and remember all this for next time you feel similarly pressured or craving.
You know better this time round- you'll do it
I wish you all the best
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