thank you for posting a little update. what a toll this must all be taking on you.
i am so glad you were able to see the love that he had for you and the kids i'm sure that's very comforting - it sure would be for me.
i hope as things surface you find you have to deal with, you come to us if you are seeking opinions or whatever. there are a lot of professionals in different areas on this board i've noticed.
god continue to bless you!