New here but not new at trying
I can not do it on my own. I am truly powerless, helpless and completely terrified but I am ready to give up trying to quit on my own.
I'm 38 yrs old. I've drank most all of my life. I concede I have issues in my past that I have refused to deal with and in turn, have become a person who refuses to deal with anything in any way.
I've faked it in the past. I've actually used meetings to sneak off and drink, leaving my wife and young daughter at home thinking I was trying to get sober.
I've crushed my wife time and again by sneaking, drinking and lying. In the last months its come to a head. I stand to lose a family and my life. I haven't stopped.
I was told by a doctor I needed to stop. I didn't stop.
I know I need to stop but I am powerless on my own to stop.
This is my only real chance. I see it work for many people. I'm willing to give it 100%, I hope.
I surrender.